Boy, am I dreading next Tuesday! I’m scheduled to get back on chemo that day, and I just don’t want to. I am not looking forward to more needle sticks for bloodwork, more needle sticks for the IV, more time in the Chemo Lounge (nice as it is), and more side effects from the treatments. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: It feels good not being on chemo. (Whoa! Did you see that lightning just barely miss me?)

Yes, I am fortunate (and happy) that my options have not run out, and that I have a new drug to try. (It’s possible that the side effects from the gemcitabine will be minimal, and I will have anguished in vain.) I am also grateful that my workplace has been kind and understanding of this disease and my time away from work. I have friends and family that cheerfully help me with daily living, food, repairs, errands, and whatever I else I need or think I need. I have much to be thankful for, and I truly am.

But I’m still dreading Tuesday.

¶ 1:50 PM