Random thoughts and good news
No news today, there's just some things running through what's left of my mind. Here's my status on:
Medicine: It seems that every medicine I took made a problem that it took another medicine to fix, so I quit taking them. All I take is children’s ibuprofen. It’s a wonder drug, no doubt. Tastes awful, but keeps me reasonably pain free, and for some reason, stops my runny nose and cough.
Working: Yes, if I can get out of bed, I go to work. It’s part of not letting the beast win. I work half a day, say good bye to my co-workers, and come home and rest for the remainder of the day.
Rest: I spend considerable time on the couch, and in a chair. Some days I am very tired, other days, I’m just “regular” tired. I go to bed around 9 p.m., and rarely sleep through the night. I stay in bed, though; there’s a good chance that if I’m lying down, I’ll go back to sleep. And I usually do.
Being tired: I’m always tired, just varying degrees of what is tolerable. I can sit for hours and be Ok, but standing or walking around just wipes me out. When I’ve been moving around too much, I start to cough. Likewise, when I’ve been talking too much, I start to lose my breath while talking. That happens a lot.
Housework: I try to get one thing done per day, and most days that works pretty well. I can manage to do a load of laundry every couple of days, I load the dishwasher now and then, and once in a while I vacuum. But not often. My boys help out considerably, although sometimes I have to catch them first. I have a neighbor who cleans my kitchen and bathrooms on a regular basis, and that makes me happy.
I have good news!
The good news: My hair is coming back nicely.
The bad news: So is my mustache.
The good news: My taste buds are coming back.
The bad news: I can eat only soft, bland, room temperature foods.
The good news: I don’t feel bad from the cancer anymore!
The bad news: The treatments may very well kill me.
The good news: The boys are doing more of the cleaning.
The bad news: It’s better than mine.
The good news: I’m finally at a weight that I really like.
The bad news: It’s only temporary.
The good news: Today is my last chemo until after surgery!
The bad news: I still get chemo after surgery.
The good news: My support system is alive and well.
The bad news: I can’t thank them enough for all they do for me.